Done with Cytoxan !!!!!

Monday was the last of six monthly infusions, which is bitter sweet. I thought I would be in a celebratory mood and feel instantly healed and free......but that was not to be the case. In fact I felt almost depressed which is odd. I think when one ends a chapter in their lives, whether painful or joyous, it is an ending which deserves the same grieving process as all endings do. This was a stronger dose and my body felt more tired and toxic than normal so perhaps I was just in a "blue funk" as my Grandma Vera says.......God bless her !!! She always finds a way to cheer me up. I also remember every other mother's day week is like this (blue funk). I miss my mom and my Grandma Donna and I always longed myself to feel what it is like to be a mom and have un-cooked french toast and juice brought to my bedroom door Mother's Day morning, by giggly kids wearing flour covered kisses. At age 40 I still feel like a kid who will never know what it feels like to be a mother. I live vicariously through those around me who do have kids(nieces, nephews, god daughters etc...). It makes me happy to know that every year moms all over the nation are acknowledged and remembered for all they do to inspire, nurture, feed, love and befriend !!!!! Every woman is a mom !!!

Make yourself a great Mother's Day! No matter who you are you have a mother somewhere. Let them know how special they are by a call, flowers, card or a silent prayer.

My cousin Sally came through brain surgery and is healing....Keep on sending her good vibes !!!

Thank you Kitty for helping out and Dale for getting me in the pool !!!! Nina for flowers and Renee for the plants and friendship........It makes it so much sweeter, this life, with friends who care.

Angela