Today is my moms birthday. She died in 1975 with lupus complications. It is always a challenging day even if I do not remember until the end of the day, I somehow usually feel it in some way or another. Today started out great then I felt stressed by many little things which normally would not get to me. It is one of those days. My sister called me to remind me and to do our ritual 6:00 toast in honor of her. I was so young when she died it feels like a whole life away yet I carry her in my heart everywhere I go every day. I do the work I do with lupus fund raising and awareness for her and others alike. I guess you can say I carry her hope that one day we find a cure and the suffering will end for millions who have auto immune disorders. I sure do miss her though. I remember her constant smile, big blue eyes and soft blond hair, or wig, depending on the time. I can see her walking on the beach in a caftan or Turkish robe and floppy hat looking very chic. Her laugh was infectious and everyone adored her as they should. What an uplifting spirit she was to so many. Amazing to me how those who seem to have the most challenges somehow find a way to lift others up by their good nature, a sweet smile and uplifting attitude. She was one of those people and I will aspire to that as a human all my life. What a challenge. One thing I know for sure is that she was happy and at peace. It is great comfort. "I love you mom".
On a light note........I am gearing up for posting a funny version of my memoir. The first chapter will explain and set up a wild ride of a life. What fun to remember and document ones life. If it never gets published or read at least I will have put it in print and had a good laugh or two and some tears as well. It saves a lot on therapy too. The end result is good as you know. There sure have been a cast of characters. The book is more about the others who helped shape my life than me. Yes that may me you.........
Peace and Health
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