For those of you who remember the 70's hit from "Kasey and the Sunshine Band" called "Roller Coaster" you will relate to how I feel. I am on steroids once again and flying high on the roller coaster of manic mania. It is truly amazing how this medication can mask the symptoms of a disease and even put it into remission while at the same time create havoc in your body, mind and emotions. Emotionally I am great: that is to say "manic" and happy with energy and lots of mental action in my little brain.........but then I realize I am like a high energy "bunny" with OCD and ADD on speed. I can hardly practice meditation or read a sentence because my mind is in 100 places all at once. The upside, and there is always an upside, is that I get a lot more done while multi tasking and feel pretty damn good. Chatty Kathy comes out to play. I can relate to why I was so hyper active in my earlier years when high doses of steroids were a daily event. I know my sister Martha and old best friend/room-mate Lisa will understand totally because I drove them crazy. The downside is that it is hard to get to sleep or stop the mental chatter, I talk to myself with out realizing it and sometimes it can make me cranky or emotional(not now thank goodness). Douglas came in the kitchen where I was alone cooking and asked who I was talking to.......That's not good. my answer was obvious and "YES" I do answer. That being said it is a wild ride and always interesting.
So "word"...........of caution; when around me now please understand I am slightly off balance and a little like a young woman in her 20's. It will go away as I taper down and eventually get off these roids, But while I am on this wave I will ride it as long as I can because being out of bed with energy and youthfulness feels good, even if I am a little nuts.