Death came as it does.............

Popa Gross, Joseph Gross, Died on Sunday at 6 pm at home with loving wife Vera and Daughter Marilyn. He was in Hospice care and in no pain for the last hours. Saturday we were with him as he suffered with body shutting down and then morphine and all the end of life savers were available. Thank God for Hospice !!! if you want to make donations you can do to Hospice or www.amsterlupus.org. Grandma has decided to have a private military burial of his ashes in Michigan where they both will rest in peace eventually. No memorials as of now as per his wishes. I guess at 92 there are few friends left and family is so scattered.

I had a tough time Sunday eve and cried in the garden with my man by my side. My Popa taught me how to garden so it seemed approriate to honor him in that space. I realized this week of July will have three major death anniversaries ( 8th my grandma(mom) saul, 10th my birth mom and 12th my grandpa gross) not to mention three other deaths in the family in the past month. What a wacky time. So last few days I have been low energy and emotionally drained but good. Douglas had to fly out Monday am and I have just been alone with my feelings and working a little in garden and on the lupus education program at UM. These things keep me busy in mind and body yet my heart is till weakish.

Michigan summer is here. Hot and muggy today after a chilly morning. Lupus is hanging out a little letting me know I need to rest and avoid sun. I am doing just that.

My wish for us all to have peace and love in our lives..............................................